“I
have stolen glances at attractive Spanish men.
I was burnt, and impaled by splinters, in the town of Vilafranca. I have spent the night with five people where
only three should fit and left with both my sanity and my life. I’ve never been expelled from university, but
one time in 3rd grade, I did get in trouble for reading past the
late bell. I tread over mountain passes
with heavy packs that others fear to walk unburdened. I have talked to valedictorians, loved cha,
and written jokes to make my friends weep.
You may have heard of me.”
This
post isn’t a “what I did this week” palooza, because that feels wrong
today. This week was a good week, like
every week so far.
I
will tell you that I’m very happy with my classes; I settled on Mediterranean
Literature after all. We read portions
of Genesis and the Epic of Gilgamesh in class, which are wrought with
interesting similarities. Eventually,
he’ll tell us who was “copying” whom. In
Mediterranean Cinema, we’ve been watching excellent, thought-provoking movies
that depart from Hollywood standards, which pleases me.
Yesterday
I wrote this rant, and since you guys get an epiphany-induced speech nearly
every semester, I wouldn’t want to abandon tradition.
Be Mediterranean if Nothing
Else
“The thought-provoking,
somewhat outdated Mediterranean culture has thrust a myriad of ideas into my
hands, for me to over-consider. As a part of a large group of
English-speaking Americans, I wish people were breathing in the culture more,
instead of constantly tweeting/ instagramming/ facebooking/ tumbling.
Listen to me: the moments
you remember are not the moments on the computer or phone or wasting your time.
I fear for a generation that creates horcruxes out of websites. I fear for my group of kids who complain about: speaking Spanish, the food their host moms make, our university requiring registration paperwork, lack of WiFi, not being able to drink at school functions… the list goes on. I fear for a world that wants to Americanize itself in an attempt to be happy, because I can´t be sure that America is all that happy. I fear for each one of us on this blog in different ways. I am a mother if nothing else. This "fear" isn´t an active worry, just my hobby of thinking I´ve got it all figured out, when I actually have no clue.
I love you all, and I want
you to be happy beyond all else. Here, I feel happier than I have in
years. This semester is healing wounds I´ve been carrying around for too
long. I think I came here as a broken vase and I´m hoping to leave as a
mosaic, if that makes sense to anyone besides me. If you have the
opportunity to study or live abroad and have at least a small desire to do so,
I couldn´t recommend it more. Foreign places (be they geographical or
metaphorical) teach you a lot about your values and ideas, and provide the
opportunity to meet incredible people.
I hate being that
stereotypical quote person, but here it is. John Muir said “Thousands of
tired, nerve-shaken, over-civilized people are beginning to find out going to
the mountains is going home; that wilderness is a necessity.” This
year, I´ve found myself disgusted with the synthetic world we´ve constructed—inside,
under synthetic lighting with our synthetic toys and synthetic food and
synthetic social interactions, working synthetic jobs we hate.
For me, this is what is genuine and worthwhile. Backpacking is my paradise. Travelling and living in a foreign country has been an adrenaline-addled adventure. Eating, exercising, and goofing around with my favorite people; writing something I’m proud of; having conversations I’ll never forget; listening to the perfect song on a road trip—those moments where life jovially takes you about the shoulders and says "See, things can be this good."
For me, this is what is genuine and worthwhile. Backpacking is my paradise. Travelling and living in a foreign country has been an adrenaline-addled adventure. Eating, exercising, and goofing around with my favorite people; writing something I’m proud of; having conversations I’ll never forget; listening to the perfect song on a road trip—those moments where life jovially takes you about the shoulders and says "See, things can be this good."
From this idea spawns
innumerable pieces of advice I could give you here, but I will say only this:
find what speaks to your core and do that thing as much as possible.
Leave it to the martyrs to save the world—you, you be happy. I think that
there´s something very Mediterranean about that idea.
And if you can look me in the eye and tell me Facebook and Tumblr are what make you happy, I will accept that.
I know there´s an author inside of me that would like nothing more than "John-Muiring" for the rest of her days, but thankfully, I think I have time to save the world as well.
And if you can look me in the eye and tell me Facebook and Tumblr are what make you happy, I will accept that.
I know there´s an author inside of me that would like nothing more than "John-Muiring" for the rest of her days, but thankfully, I think I have time to save the world as well.
Sorry I forcibly
advice-columnized you all.”
And
there you have it.
**Quote adapted
from Patrick Rothfuss’s Name of the Wind,
describing Kvothe, whose life is more interesting than mine has been thus far.
Kvothe's version: “I have stolen princesses back from sleeping barrow kings. I burned
down the town of Trebon. I have spent the night with Felurian and left with
both my sanity and my life. I was expelled from the University at a younger age
than most people are allowed in. I tread paths by moonlight that others fear to
speak of during day. I have talked to Gods, loved women, and written songs to
make the minstrels weep. You may have heard of me."
WOAH. I'm so glad I procrastinated my art history reading to read this instead. We're totes on the same page about the evils of American-izing the abroad experience. I have to admit I'm envious of the pure joy you're spilling onto the page, as I'm still working towards contentedness. Have another spectacular week!
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